almost the end...

humph..

i couldn`t sleep well yesterday because something was bothering me.. up till now..



yesterday, i had a long chat with that person.. when i decided to tell or actually made a confession about wat i feel, he hit me with a story. Story that made me sad.. till now..

so...

i decide that i wanna make this feeling clear.. this matter clear.. i need to confess and tell him my feeling indirectly.. but he will get it as if it is direct confession.

he`s my best friend for all these years. for me, i consider him as my best friend.. i dunno wat he feels about me though..
i wanna know who i am in his eyes.. best friend or more.
i won`t make him feel burden.. i don`t want to... it is just for my own sake.

even if he does not like me as i do, i will STILL become his BEST FRIEND...
i`ll be there when he needs me. when he needs somebody to listen,... to play a joke with.. anything that best friend can do.. even at first it will hurt... definitely!! even now i feel hurt.
myb it sounds stupid but it is all about feeling.i can`t simply change it.

i hope he makes a right decision. i`ll support his decision... ^ ^
i still wanna know his story.. i try not to be bias on giving suggestion. as i did yesterday, i didn`t think i gave a bias suggestion.

huff,.....
i just wanna try to be honest to him and to myself. i do not force him to become my another half, i just wanna know his feeling. as i said i`m mature enough to take wat he will say.
i hope i still can become his best friend..
hope he will not feel disturbed.. he will not feel burdened... he can find a way out of all his problems..

hope it will end well..
happy ending...

this feeling makes me hurt but i like it. i experience it.. hope we can still become best friend..
i`m looking forward to know his response and answer.. hope he can give me a good answer...

hope for the best ...^^



regards,

Es7ee ^^