give up or not?

give up...
i dun like the word...
especially NOW...
but wat can i do.. could it be the best solution for now..

can i give up now? when this feeling is still here. even it`s getting deeper.. argh.. i dun regret for wat i chose quite recently.
i`m trying to show that person that i see him differently now.. but it`s useless.. he does not even realize it.. pathetic me...

i saw the words that he wrote..
then .. wat i realize is i am not the one he`s looking for. he does not need me.
i am nothing.

then... that word..give up..comes to my mind.. do i need to give up? i can not force this feeling. i tried though but it is ended up with me hurting myself.
i`m glad i tried . but it hurts. till now i still dun wanna give up.

sounds too fake? too over? maybe.. i am just feeling stressful.. just...feeling stressful..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....




regards,


estee ^^v